Day 628: So close I can taste it

This may be one of my last blog posts as I am officially in the home stretch of my Master Black Belt program. I am so close to the end of what has been a really interesting, challenging, fun, frustrating, complicated ride. By this time next week, I will have delivered my final workshop, presented my final presentation, and screened my final video (and yes, I'll post it on this blog once screened). It's all coming together rather quickly, and this pressure-riven procrastinator loves it...

After it all winds up, then it's time for a vacation. We'll visit family and enjoy a break before the school year starts up, before skating season kicks off, and before going back to work. 


I'm kind of starting to wonder "what's next?" even before I pass the immediate milestone in front of me.

When racing, I'd always be nervous about the "what's next?" question - and more specifically about the period of time between ending one journey and beginning the next. It may be the lack of focus, direction that makes me queasy. It may be the fear of not having some goal that I can talk about with others; most of my friends and family know I'm always up to something, so a lot of our conversations start off like "what crazy thing are you training for now?" What on earth am I going to talk about? The upcoming federal election? The MLB stretch and how the Blue Jays are playing? Hm.

I have never been good at rest, at relaxing, at unplugging, at being still. It is something I have worked at over the years, and made some progress, but it is hard work for me. It's when I have a goal on which to focus that I feel still - it's almost counter-intuitive. 

Good thing I still have a crazy week in front of me.

AMac